just me. :)

Tomboy.

Dresses, flowers, makeup, jewels, dancing, crushes, curling irons and hair,

girls love them all, they love them and care.

trucks, country music, mud, fourwheelers and football,

I never have been a girl who wanted it all.

I didnt grow up liking cute things like pearls,

instead i grew up liking things of my world.

A tomboy they called me, and I was ok with that,

the boys knew i could beat them when i stepped up to bat.

but girls call me strange they laugh and they tried to make me a girly girl,

Someone i most definitely am not!

I love being me, I enjoy it, I do,

Ill never be someone girly or "cute"

I dont want to be someone I am not,

I like being me, I like it alot.

Normal.

How do you define normal?

Is it something you can see?

How do you define normal?

Are you Normaler than me?

From different worlds we've come and we've gone.

From different places ideas grow and become strong.

So ill ask you again and ill let you know now.

How do you define normal?

This is my how.

A peculiar person does not care what others think.

What society says does not make them blink.

They learn and they grow they are brave on their own.

The do not listen when the world says conform.

I may not be normal but why would i want

to be someone else's creation someone society has taught?

To be a bully to laugh and to scorn

those people who are different, who dont fit the norm.

I am my own person, I listen to one.

I know that im different, but I know how to have fun!

I dont want to be you,

I dont need dresses or eye goop.

I can be weird and I can burp as loudly as I can.

I may not be considered normal but I am the person that I am :)

humans vs. zombies AGGIE style :)

wow! i dont even know where to begin! This week has been one of the greatest, most fun, stressful, and extremely exciting weeks i have had at college. I explained about the zombies vs humans game last blog. well heres what happened. I started out as a human with my nerf gun loaded ready to win the battle. I did really well until dinner time the first night. Then i was killed. I got a little too into the competition and was way upset about being killed. (i put a 150% into all that i do and sometimes it gets the best of me) Because of my extremely competitive side, i wanted to not play so that i would not feel the stress of competition and the emotion that comes along with that. If it weren't for my roommates taking me out to "kill" on tuesday, i would not have enjoyed the week. Killing humans became my obsession. I reallly got into it! I killed twice within an hour (both boys who thought they were free of the zombie horde until they were killed) and I was really enjoying being a living dead :)You see, because i get so into things, i tend to dress up. I really enjoyed the experience. Zombies v Humans is a great game! I have to give credit to the man who brought the game to our school. I know him personally because he is my AG advisor. His name is Brice Colby and without him this week would have not happened, so thanks Brice :)

p.s. ARAGABADGAEIREF ERRRRRRRRRR. (translation= GO ZOMBIES!!!!)

change is a good thing :)

As i look back at where i was a year ago in life i am so grateful for changes that have been made. last year at this time i was so content and thought that my life was so great. it wasnt. sure it was good but if i had only known how much better it would get. my life right now is amazing. it is amazing because i know how to be happy and i know how to be happy because of the gospel. the past year has been a hard one. i went from having the one best friend i had wanted all my life to feeling alone, rejected, and unwanted. I didnt feel accepted until i let myself be. I became very involved in theater, got a new job, and tried to be so busy that i wouldnt remember the fact that i didnt have someone there like i normally do. I was very upset with where my life was. I just wanted to move to college and forget my life and how it wasnt what i wanted it to be but i couldnt. Through all of this one thing kept me happy. that was reading the book of mormon. I have been raised mormon my whole life, but everyone needs to know that what they are being taught is really what they believe. That year in seminary we were learning about the book of mormon. I had been off and on reading it but then i started to read every night 2 chapters. what happened next was amazing. i literally felt my life begin to change. i felt the power of god grow in my life. i felt loved. i felt cared for. at the time i didnt realize what was happening or how i was truly changing i just knew i was feeling happier. I know now that the book of mormon changed my life. It still changes my life today. I am now 19 years old and have read the entire thing. I can sa y without a doubt that it is a truly divine and inspired book. i know that the lord jesus christ loves me. I know that he wants me to be happy. I know that no matter what happens in my life i will be able to grow from it to learn and move on. I have a testimony that jesus christ suffered for all mankind. I know that through him all mankind may be saved. I look around and i am so amazed by the beauty of this earth. God knew that i would need the leaves falling off the trees to remind me of his love. I felt inclined to share this by my own freewill just so that everyone may understand where i am coming from a little more. I hope that you do not feel that this is some random mormom ranting because my purpose is not to preach just to share my experiences, write my feelings down, and feel better aboout life :)

The Zombies Are COMING!!

Hey everyone!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
I haven't updated in awhile so i decided to today while i have time! October was a VERY eventful month for me. I turned 19, got a job, visited home, had fun with my friends, took on new responsibilities and got snowed on :) I already wrote about turning 19 so ill start with my job. I got a job on October 5th. At the end of September i was awarded work study and was getting frustrated because i was awarded it so late in the year and every job that i had applied to had already been filled. I saw one job and didn't feel like it fit me well and didn't really want to do it but i emailed the person anyways and she replied giving me an interview time. I was terrified for my interview because, well i have never really had to do an interview before, i just got the job because i knew the person, or my dad knew the person. I went into the interview and then was hired. It took me a little time to get used to working with a lot of people, but i love having a job again and working not just sitting around my house bored or studying. I find it nice to be able to work in an environment where its just you and not the people you live with all the time. The next thing that happened in October is I visited home. My older brother got married and I went home for fall break and ended up being just a week long trip. I have come to know airports very well (at least the Vegas and SLC ones anyways) I love flying. I flew on the way back to Logan just before sunrise and watched the sun come up from the sky which is GORGEOUS :) Las Vegas was so fun. I felt like i could really gage my progress by going back. I don't realize when I'm in Logan, but i really have grown up (a bit) and i have matured. I am an adult now and i am able to take care of myself. It was great to be with my family. I love my family so much. They are the greatest blessing in my life. I love Vegas, but the whole time i was there it felt as if i was being told and shown that i am in Logan for a reason and that Logan is where i need to be. I love Logan but sometimes i miss Vegas although i know Logan is where i need to be. I have such great roommates :) I am so glad that i live with the people i live with. Who else would i be able to dress up in a mu mu, pirate costume, princess dress and build blanket forts with! These girls are my favorite and i love how much fun we have together! There is always laughter to be heard! I am having a lot of great opportunities here at USU, one of which is to be in a CES choir to go down to the fireside in November that is broadcast worldwide and sing. I am SO excited for this! It really is a once in a lifetime chance and I'm glad i get to go :) Now for one of the highlights of my October, SNOW! I got snowed on this past week :) Most people were upset that the snow came so soon but I enjoyed it. I do agree that the cold can stay away longer but I really needed snow to make me happy this week and that's what it did :) I love the place I live! It is beautiful. I wish i could share with you all the wonderful life i am living in the most amazing place! It really is great! I hope you enjoyed a piece of my life and that you are doing what i am, "living the life i love and loving the life i live" :)

oh and p.s. this next week we are playing a giant game of humans vs zombies that includes Nerf guns...I'm kinda thinking i have the best school EVER :)

one year older and wiser too?

Its thursday night, I can barely move I feel so exhausted from the week before. I fall asleep and don't wake up until the next day. This time I wake up to a phone call. It is a roommate asking me if I can come let them in. I get out of bed, walk to go out of my room and find streamers hanging in the doorway. A smile begins to form. I walk down the hall and see balloons, more streamers and happy birthday written everywhere! My roommates had decorated the house! It wasnt quite my birthday but since they were leaving we celebrated a day early. At noon I went to lunch with a person from back home named Karol Frodsham. She gave me balloons and took me out to Costa Vida for my birthday :) after that we went to a "simply divine" and I had lovely food! It made me so happy! I love that there are people here in Logan from Las Vegas! That night was the GREATEST night of my college experience so far. You see, when I tell people I am going to school in Utah they automatically assume that it is just BYU. That has always kind of irked me and I have began to Hate BYU to an extent. Utah State had not beaten the cougs for quite some time and I was so excited that it was the day before my birhtday. I knew that that was what I wanted. The game was so nerve-wracking, so exciting, so just amazing and I was so just enthralled with football in a way I had never been before. Utah State beat BYU and my lie was complete. I had had the best birthday present given to me that I have ever recieved. I was so happy :) I went to bed peaceful that night. The next day I woke up and I was just so happy still! My parents were sending a package through jim crowley, whose son also attends USU and I was SO happy to get it. Inside were clothes I forgot (including my FAVORITE pair of jeans) a book, tons and tons of candles (to make up for last year) and candy! There was also a poster of Emma Smith who is my hero! I LOVED getting this birthday present suprise :) After I got that I was able to watch bits and pieces of conference before going to lunch with more former Las Vegans :) MY old neighbors, the Rogers live in logan and Shawna and Ashley took me to lunch, gave me more balloons, chocolate, homemade cookies, and flowers :) After lunch we went to the mall and it was so much fun! Its not as bad as everyone makes it out to be. Sure its not Las Vegas malls, but you only get those in Vegas :) We went to TJ maxx next and I bought my first coat! It is a REAL coat! I really really like it. It was less than half of what it is normally. And its Really good quality. After that we went to heaven on earth which is also known as Old Navy and I got the GREATEST sweater EVER!!! It made me SOO very happy! It was on sale too. I then came home and i chilled. I relish time I can have at home by myself because, well with 6 girls in an apartment it doesnt happen often. I enjoy being able to just be lazy. Its fun. That was how my 19th birthday was spent :)

life is GREAT.

Well, ive been at college for over a month now, and can i just say it is the greatest place! I know so much about myself as a person and who i am. It makes me happy to be here. I am meeting GREAT people who are such good friends to me! I have gotten involved in Area Government, (AG) and I love it! This past weekend I was able to go on a retreat for the AG all around campus and it seriously was the most amazing thing ever!. I have gone to so many different leadership trainings, retreats and other things, but there was something different about this one. it was just amazing. I have never felt like i learned more about myself in one weekend than i did this weekend. Life is such an interesting thing. It gives you people and friends that you can learn from and grow from. I became such great friends with people i JUST met. Its such a great thing to know that i can become a great leader, that i can be the leader that i want to be. I know that this year will be great! i know that no matter what i will be able to be great. I can now say that I LOVE THE LIFE I LIVE AND LIVE THE LIFE I LOVE :)

college :)

well i have now been at college for two weeks and it has been one of the most amazing and hardest two weeks of my life. I never knew that i would miss my family so much. I know that i am supposed to be here. Logan is amazing! It gets boring and there arent as many options for fun as there are in Las Vegas. I miss being able to just get in my car and drive. I miss having tons of friends and going places where I feel comfortable. I know that eventually I will have that relationship and have those friends I can always go to but I dont have that yet. I love my roommates. If I didnt have the roommates that I do have, then I would hate it here. I have five roommates. They are Julia, Kelsey (those two are cousins and hilarious when they get together, especially if its for an interpretive dance), then Aly, Sam (these two came from the same town and crack me up constantly even though they pretend to hate me) and Michaela (who is the one I actually share the room with) The six of us just click. We work together and are such good instant friends. I have great teachers too! I love my classes. They are so fun! Public Speaking is DEFINITELY my favorite so far! I love talking and thats all the assignments are for this class is just talking :) I can't wait to get into the semester, learn new things and make new friends :) REMEMBER, BE BOLD, BE BEAUTIFUL, BE EXCITING, BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY BE YOU!! :)